I thought I was someone who handled loneliness very well. It was my choice, which is why I talked about it so easily. I always emphasized that the ability to be alone with oneself reflects my maturity. Now, as I’m about to turn 30, I feel like I’ve reached a point where it bothers me a lot. I want to be in a relationship, but I can't find a man. I often wonder what’s wrong with me. I feel like I have no luck with men. When I tell them what I do, they burst out laughing.
I have a friend who drags me to parties and social gatherings. She always tries to make me the center of attention and help me form new relationships. Even though she has a loving husband herself, whenever she has some free time, she takes on the role of a matchmaker. I really appreciate what she does, and I tell her that I really want a change. That’s probably why she is so involved in fighting for my happiness.
I’m Afraid I’ll End Up Alone
During our last outing to a nightclub, something happened that made me say goodbye to my dreams of finding a wonderful man and starting a family. When I was dancing with a very nice, smiling man with whom I had a great conversation, I thought something might come of it. However, he eventually asked me what I do for a living. The magic was gone. Of course, I answered truthfully that I’m a cashier in a grocery store. Maciek, as his name was, laughed and asked if I worked at the deli counter. At first, I thought he was joking, but he was serious. He laughed a little more and walked away without a word.
This situation made me not want to force a relationship. It really got me down. I don’t know how to talk to men to make them interested in me. Have you been in a similar situation? Where did you find love? I’m afraid I’ll end up alone.
Aleksandra
