Hi, my name is Asia, and I’m 28. I’ve been working for as long as I can remember. I started before I even went to college, and during my studies, I also worked part-time, mostly in retail. Now, I have a full-time job. It’s related to my field of study and my interests, but it doesn’t matter because I’ve lost all my energy.
"I don’t want to work 9 to 5. Half my day slips away"
My boyfriend and I live with my parents. If it weren’t for them, I don’t know how I’d cope, both mentally and financially. Every day, I wake up early, get ready, and take the bus to work. It takes me an hour, thanks to traffic. Same thing on the way home. With a full-time job, half the day is gone. I come home and collapse on the bed. I have no energy after a day like that. I force myself to help with groceries or do something around the house. I’m not ungrateful, after all. But honestly, all day long, I’m just thinking about getting back to bed. Then the cycle repeats.
I like my job, but I don’t want to work from 9 to 5. That system just doesn’t work for me. I struggle to wake up in the morning, and at night, I can’t sleep, even when I’m exhausted. Unfortunately, there’s no shift work option, so I don’t have a choice. I’d gladly work in the evenings when no one bothers me, but that’s not an option here, so I feel stuck.
"I can’t even afford a studio apartment. I make decent money, but still not enough."
Maybe I wouldn’t feel so overwhelmed if I had my own place. Maybe something closer to work. But I can’t even afford a studio apartment. I make decent money, but still not enough to qualify for a loan. My boyfriend isn’t in a rush to get married, and I don’t want to pressure him. I don’t want to rent because, first, the prices are insane, and second, my parents have a two-story house. It would be a shame for it to sit almost empty with just two retirees and their dog living there.
So, I just exist. Always tired, always with my phone in hand because I don’t have the energy for anything else. And I don’t even have kids. I can’t imagine what parents in my situation must go through. That’s it. I just wanted to vent.
It’s important to remember that if a difficult situation starts to weigh heavily on you, it’s a good idea to seek help from professionals. Advisors, doctors, and therapists can help you deal with the problem.
